Things have been going alright with school. Still going steady and all, doing most of my homework, and participating in class. But outside of school has gotten a bit more difficult. I'm not sure what it is, but the past few days have just been taxing on me. It's probably a mixture of family life, anxiety for the present, and anxiety for the future. I've never been good at the whole planning thing. I'd say I've done a pretty good job with school in general up till now. But this whole planning for college thing, where I want to go, how I'm going to pay for it, what I'm going to study, and whether or not its going to take me through life has always been a source of anxiety for me. Ever since I interned at Wonderful! Graffiti, I've felt I want do something in Graphic Design. But even that direction doesn't seem to be enough. Where will I learn what I need to learn, and what about all the competition? What will I do besides make money to support myself and my family? What kind of meaning will my life have?
Anyway, these are just the things that I've been thinking about recently. Schools taking a bit of a back seat in my mind at the moment.
2 comments:
don't worry about it... most kids dont know what they want to be when they go into college some times it takes years... when you find what you want to do you'll know.
P.S i think the futer is scary too
Jill
You ask some great questions that unfortunately aren't always answered in the next few years.
The best thing about college is that you get to try new things out and discover more about yourself and what life has to offer. The best advice I ever received was to take advantage of as much as you can so that you can at least say you didn't miss out. Everything is a learning experience, whether it directs you or diverts you!
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